I imagine I know

I am your mother
I cannot imagine not knowing you as well as I do now
I imagine you understand exactly what I am saying
I cannot imagine you ever not telling me how you are feeling
I imagine you know what that is most of the time
I cannot imagine you ever not saying

I wish I knew for definite how to not lose that.

Sometimes I can feel you slipping slowly away. So vividly.
Thankfully most times I can feel you reaching out and we catch each other. We connect. We communicate. We love.

Connection
Communication
Love
Meltdowns
Losing the Plot
Breastfeeding