I want to be that mother who can stand up and say I am a strong confident mother and I know what is best for my children. We breastfeed and co sleep, We listen, We include, We eat chocolate and snot smoothies, we trampoline and grow frogs, we sling, we carry and we try and understand and work with our children without resorting to punishments, threats or coercion.

Monday, 19 March 2012

Seriously?? What is this baby trying to tell me now?

So I am lying on the sofa with my legs dangling over the edge, pillows under my bum, a hot pack on my pubic area and a freezella frozen block on my upper left quadrant, having taken pulsatilla and I am thinking WHAT THE FUCK??????

I cannot believe after all the excitement and paid off hard work of controlling my gestational diabetes in a way that has calmed my midwife down enough to feel comfortable with a home birth and the NHS happy with me not needing insulin or a hospital birth, that at my appointment today, she thinks the baby is breech.  I felt like the baby was sideways yesterday or day before and now midwife heard heart beat in upper right quadrant, never been there before and is fairly sure the head was in upper left quadrant

BREECH???? I mean come on...not only have I not given birth yet, which may not seem much to most, but is like going 42weeks for me since Ellie was 36 and Maia was 37.  I haven't gestated this long before and its a horrible feeling.  I have been going more and more doolally as the days go on.  The girls are suffering from my terrible mood.  Barry is suffering from my frustration and lack of sense of humour and patience.  AND NOW THIS??

I have websites galore regarding breech babies.  Woman who have been amazingly strong and had their breech babies at home or in a birthing centre, so I do know its possible.  Woman who have turned their baby with special techniques, moxibustion, acupuncture, all fours, bum in air, inversion positions, taking pulsatilla,  lying on an ironing board at 45degrees, heat on pubic area, ice on head......

Tomorrow I am going for a scan to check the position as midwife isn't 100% sure (who is?) and the possibility of an ECV

....but you know what?

I am tired.  I am despondent.  I cannot think positively any more.  I just want my baby out. Oh well, back to the ironing board....

Meltdowns - increasing
Losing the Plot - all time high
Breastfeeding - least of my worries and colostrum in freezer

Breech Articles for research

Breech Birth UK Midwifery Archives

Breech births

How to Turn a Breech Baby

Prenatal Breech Issues - from Ronnie Falc√£o's Midwife Archives

Breech Position

If your baby is breech

Breech Vaginal Birth Techniques and Issues

Moxibustion for breech - London Acupuncture 

Moxibustion in Breech Version - A descriptive Review

Moxibustion Video

Cephalic Version by Moxibustion for Breech Presentation Cochrane Summaries

Ina May Gaskin on Tips for Breech Birth - Midwifery Today Birth Essentials - YouTube

Hands off that breech!

Overcoming Fear to Experience Raw Power: A Breech Home Birth Story

In Celebration of the OP Baby | Midwife Thinking

Spinning Babies Home | spinningbabies.com

Daily Activities to turn breech baby - Spinning baby

Flip a breech - spinning Baby

Are there any safe and proven methods to turn a breech baby? Baby Centre

The Management of Breech Presentation - Royal College of Obstetricians and Gynaecology 

How to manage breech babies BMJ

Turning Babies or ECV

Breech Birth - Kings College

Interventions for helping to turn term breech babies to head first presentation when using external cephalic version

Saturday, 17 March 2012

soon soon so very soon I can almost taste it







Friday, 9 March 2012

GBS links for research












Saturday, 3 March 2012

This Group I am In

Thanks for all your replies - they all help me to be a better, more patient (outwardly at least) mum

Thanks to all for helping me with this, such an amazing resource here!

I can't tell you all how grateful I am. I'm passionate about choice, about sharing information, and about parents making the decisions they feel are right. Not the decisions i make. Love love love to you all, you amazing, supportive, educated but thoughtful, intelligent, gentle, accepting, open minded people!

Thank you everyone, you made me cry...xoxo :))

I seriously ♥ you guys, you know that, right?

I thought about this group and how special it is and how strange it is to like and feel warm towards people you've never met. The world is changing so much

Maybe I should include in my will that I'd like my sister to have them and for her to be made a member of this group in the event of my death

I'm passionate about choice, about sharing information, and about parents making the decisions they feel are right. Not the decisions I make. Love love love to you all, you amazing, supportive, educated but thoughtful, intelligent, gentle, accepting, open minded people!

My bet it being the well intention group that it is, you'll be loved, reassured, not judged, and you'll know in your heart all is well.

This is really a great group of people. So open minded and non judgemental feeling to me. I appreciate you all!!!

If I have inspired then I am very glad. But I have also been inspired and carried by many on this group ♥

I just wanted to say how much of a support this group is, thank you everybody reading your posts makes me a happier person!

Thanks guys you are brilliant!!! This group is such an amazing resource!

You have truly given me hope. I was so hesitant to post something so personal and painful but I said to myself 'maybe someone will really say something to help' and you really have! All of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you!!

I love and value you all so much! In the past, I've made the mistake of forcing the issue with DS. Thank you for talking me down. So grateful for your empathy, sympathy, and guidance!! ♥

Bless you lovely people! I've got what I need. Thank you ♥

I just wanted to say you are amazing women and I love ready your stories. Thank you for this forum!

So...just a positive post from me and a "keep it up" to anyone struggling. We're poor, we live in a tiny house, the weather is shite, but I'm having great days. I love all of you supportive ladies and I hope you find many good days coming your way!

You know, it might be strange and 2 years ago i could not imagine myself saying it ever but it's been true for some time for me now: this fb group is like a real tribe for me; lots of hugs and kisses and smiles, albeit virtual, are shared here. And i certainly feel cherished/upheld as one member of the community. Just wanted to share:-)

This is just what I needed today. This group means so much to me, helps me so much. Thank you!!!

Thanks everyone, I am feeling like I am coming out of the pit of depression that I fell into last week, thanks in part to your nudges in the right direction and your ideas and support. I so appreciate your time responding. Onwards and upwards!

What would i do without you, cheering for me at my low points?! Thank you.

Even though I've not been here for a while, I just wanted to say that this forum gave me strength in my convictions.  just knowing you're all here has given me such power to continue the way I want to. So thank you

today I feel very happy and grateful that I found TCC, the list, this group and so many other sources of support and knowledge through this all. I wonder what kind of parent would I be if there wasn't for all of this...

I am so thankful for the many small words and acts of support from you guys and other special folk. I appreciate you all.

I am feeling so much positive vibes from the tribe at the moment - I am flying on them thanks for sharing your beautiful photos and news and stuff. Love you lot xx

I love it here: such a joy to read all the wonder-ful birth stories, stories of amazing mamas, and so much life wisdom shared:-) I am sending love and hugs to each of you, wonderful tribe:-)

I just have to say that this is the coolest group ever and I am sitting here with a feeling of awe when I think of what we all mean to each other! Many of us haven't even met in real life, but nevertheless we share our innermost feelings and thoughts, joy and sorrow, crazy events and difficult decisions. From reading one particular book. One book, that has given us this deep connection! I have so much more in common with you than with most acquaintances and even friends that I have around in my "real" physical life. Almost difficult to fathom, isn't it? Just so sad that we are spread out all over the world... but nothing new under the sun.  to you all

I am often amazed when I think about this space. So incredible.