I want to be that mother who can stand up and say I am a strong confident mother and I know what is best for my children. We breastfeed and co sleep, We listen, We include, We eat chocolate and snot smoothies, we trampoline and grow frogs, we sling, we carry and we try and understand and work with our children without resorting to punishments, threats or coercion.

Friday, 27 March 2015

Intermittent willpower

Who has tried the intermittent fasting.....tell me your experiences and tips?

I tried the Paleo way of eating last year and found it hard to sustain the no grains thing (and the constant cooking thing!) I like cous cous. I like bread. I like quinoa. I like noodles. I'm not overly excited with most rice (except fried) and pasta DOES bloat me.....oh also the no sugar was really really hard but I'm going to have to get on that.  Again!!

Several people have suggested the 5:2 intermittent fasting way of eating and so I'm going to try it. Combined with less processed more 'real cooked from scratch foods' and actually really starting to cut down on my chocolate intake, not just pretend I am by spreading it thro the day more, this might work for me. 

Mercola suggests 11am-7pm. That sounds slightly more doable than ALL FRIKIN' DAY!!   I find it hard to eat in the mornings anyway but if I wait for hubby to come home and the kids to be in bed then it's nearly 10pm!!  

Day 3 of all eating together was refused by all the girls. Hubby loved his. He may have also knowingly and willingly eaten courgette but I didn't double check!!! 

This article was in my inbox today and even tho I said a while back, that I feel one step closer to death every time I read Mercola, I decided to keep subscribed.  A part of me knows he makes some sense. I don't read them all now but I opened this one tonight.

For whom the bell tolls

Unsurprisingly but very annoyingly my diabetes has resurfaced. Back to cooking real food instead of easy oven ready things and not eating chocolate every night. 

 I knew it was only a matter of time. There was no way I could sustain my health with the foods I was eating and definitely not with the amount of chocolate I was on. 

I guess I will be going back to almost Paleo again but this time I am aiming to cook only one meal instead of three. It's going to be a take it or leave it home from now on. I'm also going to have to increase my cooking repetoir to more than just chicken stir fry or mince and sweet potato. :(


Sunday, 15 March 2015

The REAL deal....

As of this week, 8months after we finally made the move and left the city for a new life in the country, 6months after we were told to leave our 'supposed' dream home in the country and 3months after we laid eyes on our REAL new dream home in the country, we are in the last stages and waiting for the papers and missives to be sorted. 

We are still tentative because we know how slow to respond and difficult it has been and they may come up with some new fresh hell before signing some of the property over to us.....BUT thanks to our loving family (who don't want to see us homeless!) and (un)fortunate inheritance, it would seem likely that we may be buying a farm!!!! Squeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

For as long as I can remember I have wanted to live in the country.  I grew up half in the city and mostly up north in the wilds of Scotland on a caravan site.  I created a childhood full of nature and excitement.  Wide open spaces. Fresh air. Mud. Sea. Solitude. Self sufficiency. Confidence, uniqueness and adventure. Its a way of life that always appealed to me way more than the 'little boxes on the hillside'!

It took me a long time to persuade my hubby that this is where we should be, that  this is where our kids should be growing up. Somewhere with space to explore, play and to find their own adventures. Our eldest is now 8 and I've been trying for 7yrs to get him to leave the comfort of his suburban zone! He now says he can't ever imagine moving back to closely spaced identikit houses 'made of ticky tacky'. 

The new place is definitely what an estate agent would call 'great potential'. We will have our work cut out for us but it will be all worth it in the end!  Well it better bloody be because we've encountered some crazy obstacles to get this far! 

We've managed to stay in this house well past our welcome. It has been an experience and has ultimately led us to this point. The loony landlord unwittingly did us a massive favour whilst he will be the one who will remain stuck and grumparsey in his miserable existence trying to make everyone else around him miserable. Someone should have told him you can't keep a good Berlow-Jackson down! 

We hope to move in April and once again start our new life in the country!!!

I can't wait! I've waited long ebloodynough!!

Meltdowns - daily. The stress is getting to us 
Losing the plot - daily. The stress is getting to us 
Breastfeeding - almost night weaned. Almost!!!

Sunday, 4 January 2015

Back To The Future is NOW!

Back to the Future is a firm favourite in our home. We call it BackFutu because these were the only letter stickers available to label my recorded 'video' of the film. 

I've loved these films since I was a kid so I'm quite excited by the date fast approaching!!

Hubby and I watched the second one this evening (we have it on DVD now!) and we made a list in order of seeing them....

Here is what should be made by October 21st 2015 or already exist:-

Flying DeLorean
Sleep zapper
Self sizing clothes
Accurate weather service 
3D advert 
Robotic gas station attendant
Talking adverts
TV waiter
@Mattel Hoverboard
Self drying clothes
Watches with two straps 

Drone camera - already exists!!

Electronic binoculars - already exists!!

Litter bug moving trash can
Thumb print ID from police

Thumb print recognition door entry - already exists!!

Projector screen tv - already exists!!

Upside down back stretcher 
Retractable Garden fruit system
Thumb print payment system
Voice activated TV
Voice activated greeting system
Self walking dog flying drone
Black and decker food hydrator Rehydrating pizza from miniature 

Glasses to watch tv on - already exists!!

Glasses to answer phone 

Two ties ensemble

Video chat - already exists!!

Internet surveillance - already exists!!

Electronic ID signature machine

Well let's get busy gadget making people.......!!!

#BackToTheFuture #2015 #21stOctober #Hoverboard

Wednesday, 10 December 2014

Beware: Computer scam


On phone to them just now. Keeping them talking. Asking about his kids, he told me he had a kid of 6 and them I asked him if his mother knows he does this job. I them asked if he was married and if his wife liked him doing this job, he wavered here and wasn't sure how to answer (I'm betting she doesn't like it) and them I said his mother must be so proud of him scamming people like this. He kept denying he was scamming me. I then said he didn't care about his heritage by using an English name when he was in India and didn't he care about scamming a mother of three.  Was on for 20 mins and was making porridge for kids, talking them through making kale crisps and talking to him at same time. Also been googling what he's asking me to do. What a scammer!

 I then asked him to hold on whilst I breastfed my kid!

He eventually gave up saying if I didn't believe him we should stop the call and he hung up on me!!!



They ask you to sit at your PC and click START > RUN > then type "CMD" (command) into the RUN box. This opens up a black box on the screen, which older PC users may recognise as the DOS window. 
In the DOS window they ask you to type "ASSOC" and hit Rtn and a long list of stuff comes up on the screen. 

They ask you to look near the bottom of the list for the letters "CLSID" and explain that this is a unique identification number known only by the manufacturer of the operating system. 
They then read out a number and ask you if it matches the one on the screen in front of you, which of course it does. 
The complete line looks like this: ZFSendToTarget=CLSID\{888DCA60-FC0A-11CF-8F0F-00C04FD7D062}
and they read out this number: 888DCA60-FC0A-11CF-8F0F-00C04FD7D062

This is all to get your trust and make you think that they are a support company and that they have the information about your computer, they don't, this number is the same on every Windows based operating system released in recent years. 

I don't know what happens after this but I have read elsewhere that they are trying to get you to allow them remote access to your PC via the likes of LogMeIn or other means. This could be for various reason like charging you for the "work" they have done or installing software on you PC. 

Thursday, 30 October 2014

Food food glorious.....fuck off

I've had it up to here ^^^ with the girls and their ridiculous food fussiness, I'm sick of making food that doesn't get eaten or refusing foods they ate only the other day or eating the same crappy pasta, waffles or veggie sausages. 

So yesterday, when they came home from school I said this is what's going to happen. We are going to walk the dog then when we come back, there will be no tv (another contentious issue) and I'm taking each of you into the kitchen and you are going to make your dinner, with my help. Well Ellie decided she wanted pasta (*sigh*) and a tomato based sauce which she opened splattered all over the kitchen and ate half of before changing her mind and going for pesto. So she folks her pasta, adds chopped tomato and goes off happily. Maia decides she wants chips and mini waffles, I can't persuade her to add anything to it, so it's done. She lies on the floor in the kitchen waiting for ten mins to pass, turns them over, then waits some more. All good. Perhaps?

Today I tried the same approach. Millie wanted scrambled eggs. She will usually eats whatever I make and loves to help make it so she is not a problem. Maia says she wants scrambled eggs too but just as I'm spooning it onto the plate she changes her mind and walks away. I call her several times that her lunch is in the table but she ignores me. I go into the living room and say 'why are you ignoring me, that just makes me really upset. Your lunch is on the table'. She eats a few mouthfuls and says she is full. Rileydog is happy. 

Ellie comes into the kitchen and says she doesn't like this new way. She wants waffles. I ask her to get them and put the oven on. She hasn't done it so far. 

Im at a loss with what to do. I hate standing in the kitchen with literally no clue what to make only to have it not eaten. I thought they would enjoy spending the time with me doing cooking stuff but seriously my kids are on a lazy town making mummy crazy path and there's no stopping them.

I'm sick of being treated like the skivvy. I'm sick of being ignored. I'm sick of being under appreciated. I'm sick of having to shout at them before they hear me and I'm sick of them still ignoring me even when I am shouting at them. Most of all I'm sick of my behaviour always directly affecting theirs. Can't I be in a mood without them reacting to it. I hate the pressure. I have to be calm and rational when they kick off!!

Suffice to say things are a bit of a mess down this way just now and I'm flailing. 

Meltdowns - instantaneous at the moment

Losing the plot - sarcasm switch needs breaking 

Breastfeeding - OMFG leave me alone