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Breastfeeding: This is what I think

Knowledge and support for women in breastfeeding starts from birth, it should be prevalent and permeate into our culture again until it is just normal, it is what babies need and should be having.  There are always going to be those who just don’t want to breastfeed. This I believe is through generations of women living with lack of a 'tribe', lack of support, poor self body image, low self esteem  and uninformed health professionals rather than the woman coming from a truly biologically safe and nurtured space themselves, as Emma Kwasnica says

“The thing is, *most* women DO understand how important breastfeeding is! They WANT to breastfeed! Every fibre of their being, their gut, their entire intuition is telling them to breastfeed the baby!! There are hoards of women out there who are NOT making a fully informed choice to formula feed. They fell into formula feeding. They don't WANT to be formula feeding. How many women are out there, fully confident, fully happy to be bottle-feeding, smiling away, feeling honestly GOOD about pouring PIF into their infant's body? Very, very few.

And WHY is this? Because WOMEN INHERENTLY WANT TO BREASTFEED!!! THEY ARE SIMPLY NOT SUPPORTED TO DO SO IN THIS EFF'D-UP SOCIETY OF OURS. The very reason they feel so much guilt is because they KNOW it is the physiological way, the normal way, the biologically-expected way to feed the baby. WOMEN KNOW THIS. They are feeling the dreaded guilt BECAUSE of this fact. Not because society is "pressuring them" to be the 'perfect mom', but because society is FAILING THEM. Failing to support them to follow their gut instincts. 

Show me the hoards of women who choose formula feeding from the outset, making a fully informed choice to feed it. We know this is not true because initiation rate for breastfeeding in North America are high! They are most often up over 80% nowadays, sometime 90! Then, it drops drastically. WHY IS THIS?  Simply put, because women and babies are not being given the support or the information required to successfully breastfeed. THAT is the crux of the matter.” 

I don’t think parents are being given the full information regarding the dangers of formula and the positives of breastfeeding BUT ALSO the difficulties that can occur, which can be normal.  There are many obstacles that some woman face when breastfeeding, coupled with the intensity of caring for a new life and without the proper information and support it becomes much easier to give a bottle.  The advertising of formula is pervasive and insidious and to a sleep deprived hormonally charged mother seems like the only solution.  This is when most mothers give up, when the difficulties faced are faced alone and faced with lack of support and information.  I do believe that woman should be informed of the negatives of formula too, so they can make a FULLY informed choice.

i think the 'breast is best' worked as a reintroduction of breastfeeding to our society but now it is old and has negative connotations.  It is time for a change and it should be more about normalising breastfeeding and how it helps with connection and comfort not just nutrition.  I think we should be leaning towards breastfeeding is normal and optimal and formula is way down the list of available sources of sustenance and for those that really truly cannot breastfeed. 

That's what I think.

Meltdowns - reduced with breastfeeding

Losing the Plot - reduced with breastfeeding

Breastfeeding - normal

A skills chain

I want my children to grow up and know how to cope with life.  I never felt able to cope with my life.  I never felt in control, I often feel dissatisfied, I often feel unfulfilled, I never felt I could manage on my own.  I spend a lot of my time and energy trying to manage my life.  It is easier in some areas than it is in others.  I once wrote how I was perfecting my 'homely tidying' skills in order that I would have that sorted and manageable when the time came for me to need it.  Boy was I prophetic there!  With two toddlers and a husband, my skills have come in handy!  They are by no means complete though and there are glaring gaps in my skill set.

I don't want this for my kids so I spend a lot of time and energy trying to make sure that whenever stressful things happens in their life, they can find ways to cope and ultimately feel satisfied, fulfilled and happy with themselves and their abilities. 

I know I am failing to a certain degree when I find myself in situations where I am shouting at the girls or I am threatening to send them to bed because they have once again jumped on me, causing me to jar and make my back pain worse.  This is what I did tonight and I knew when I said it that it was a ridiculous empty threat borne of tiredness and pain and not one that I would actually carry out.  As if them being 'sent to bed' would in ANY way make life easier, happier or enjoyable for anyone.  For a start, I would be going with them since they are not actually able or ready to do it themselves.  Its a chain though, its a slope.  A slopey chain.  If I start with threats of sending to bed, I could lessen to threats of sending to room which is just one step away from 'The Naughty Step'...just exactly where I don't want to start. 

Its a technique that many parents are encouraged to use because it seemingly works.     It works through fear and humiliation.  The child is left simmering alone in their own feelings with no-one to connect to and understand what is happening. It belittles children and undermines a connected loving relationship. It cuts off communication and causes frustration and a feeling of uselessness.  These threats do not create harmony, they do not create comfort, they are by their very nature scary, threatening and authoritarian.  Its serve no purpose and benefits no-one.

So back to skills.  Providing my girls with the skills to manage their own lives is proving quite difficult for someone whose own skill set is woefully lacking.  Encouraging my girls to use their strength and confidence to sort out life's issues when I find myself lacking in these areas, is a hard slog.  Doing it in a consciously respectful and gentle way is not always as simple as it sounds.  'Use your words' is fast becoming a stock phrase in our house with my 4yr old often saying it to me as well.  Its really hard to 'use my words' when the words coming out of my mouth are loud and ugly!  When my initial instinct is to 'freak out' which results in saying something mean or upsetting.  I can hear myself say the words and I think 'OMG did I really just say that', it was totally unhelpful. At least one skill they are learning from me is apologizing for unacceptable behaviour!! 


I am really starting to change my initial reaction, its a work in progress but awareness is my friend,sometimes though, I am just too tired of having to be 'on the ball' and my authentic sullied self shines through.  Sometimes I don't know what to do with my feelings, so its no wonder my kids don't use their words sometimes.  I can see their difficulty.  Who see's mine?

Meltdowns - increasing due to changes
Losing the Plot - lessening but possibly due to brain deadening!
Breastfeeding - still the elixir of our lives