Hold

Hold your babies close tonight

Hold your baby close

Hold your heart all wrapped up tight

Hold the love that never fades

Keep your baby in your love

Hold your babies close tonight

Uh oh!! Ain't that the tooth!

In true Ellie style...tragedy, hopefulness and mind wandering....

Dear tooth fary my tooth fell out but I lost it down the plug         hole please give me £5 because that tooth

She's getting a pound. I showed this to hubby he said he'd give her £2!! I don't think that's necessary. 

We spent a long time and effort trying to retrieve it (I was sure I saw it down the hole not washed away yet). Thanks to our friends for keeping Millie out of the manky sink-pipe water and reading to the girls to keep them calm for bed since left to their own devices, they would have started more acrobatics!!

In all honesty, Ellie was happy to know she was still getting money  that the tooth fairy was still coming, it's me that wants to keep her baby teeth!!

I'm actually torn on the fantasy, magic and wonderment and the lie. On one hand they want to believe it and they do, but on the other, I hope they are not disappointed when they find out its not true not us. (Shhh don't tell anyone!) 

I do like how we've written responses and glittered them up, I'm all for artyfarty and pizazz, but surely elaborate lies can never be a good idea!!!

(At least we are not using it as a manipulation tool....if you're not a good boy Santa won't come, if you don't tidy your room, the tooth fairy won't come, if you don't eat your dinner you won't get any Easter eggs)

Thing is, we now have to do it in a similar fashion for all three kids!! 

Talk about all or nothing!! 

Couldn't we have just stuck to a simple quid under the pillow??!!

Meltdowns - very upset (understandably) at lost tooth

Losing the plot - maybe a bit, when computer fell off high shelf and almost hit Millie

Breastfeeding - SO tooooo much at moment

Wibble Wobble wibble wobble

I absolutely loved having wobbly teeth when I was young. I saved them in a heart shaped box.  I'm a picker and a fiddler and it fulfilled all my icky desires. Now that the Ellie's are getting wobbly I am ALL over her. Asking to wobble it. Look at it. Touch it. Film it.  I am incorrigible!! I love it!!

http://youtu.be/T8ReoDa-urk

Still going

I can put as much of a positive thinking, getting my shit together, dealing with my issues, spin on it as I like, it's still just me keeping it together all day with three lively communicative active kids. It's still G-d damn nigh on impossibly hard sometimes,  yet here I am nearly 7yrs later.  Still standing. Still loving. Still laughing. Still crying. Still shouting. Still connecting. Still trying. Still breastfeeding. Still not sleeping. Still wondering. Still worthy. Still wanted. Still loved. 

Maybe we're all doing something right after all!

Meltdowns - minimal actually!

Losing the plot - kind of, but not totally

Breastfeeding - toooooo much something must be growing, developing, hurting, working

Some people just say it so brilliantly...Episode 1

"Instead of saying the obvious, I would like to provide a tool to bring yourself to the present moment: Question the thoughts that take you
away from this moment. The thoughts that you must do something else, other than being present with your child.
Question the most “obvious” thoughts:
   I have to wash the dishes
   I must make dinner
   The laundry cannot wait
   I am tired
   My child is too demanding
   My children should play by themselves

While being with your child with your mind elsewhere, question your contrary thoughts:
   If I don’t think of it now, I will forget to do it later
   There is so much I need to do
   I wish I could go out (when your child plays indoors)
   I wish I could go home (when your child plays out at the playground)

The reason we get tired and stressed is not the child or the chores nor even the lack of sleep; it is the contrary thoughts about these.
Falling in love with this moment exactly the way it is makes life easy and vital.

The ability to bring yourself to this moment takes practice (questioning your thoughts) because your mind’s program is to want something other
than this moment. If your child is demanding, she learned from you to seek another moment. This is not a reason to feel guilty, but to wake up
to this beautiful moment and take responsibility for what you create. Responsibility is not guilt. Responsibility is action. The flowers are
wilting, no guilt for forgetting to water them. Just action: water the flowers.

When you find yourself devoted to what is not, or to avoiding this moment, or avoiding your child, instead of indulging the thoughts of guilt,
forgive yourself kindly, and bring yourself back to the moment. Looking deep into your child’s eyes is one of the best ways to recapture the
now." Naomi Aldort 

Do You Remember When We Used to....

come down to a new dvd on a saturday morning

roller blade at the car shop

do magic on a thursday with an eggshell in a Tupperware

spend hours learning the names of moshis

carry baby Millie

carry Annabel doll in a sling

get a graze box on Saturday mornings

jump on the trampoline pretending to be dogs

go to parks and get covered in mud

make a stall to sell things

go round the neighbours selling things and collecting money for charity

get balloons at the car garage

picnic on the roundabout

do sparklers on the roundabout on fireworks night

climb on the roof of the car and slide down the windscreen

write letters and leave presents for the mice

put two legs in one and play mermaids

do shows before bedtime

spend all day in the woods making fires and playing in rivers

be woken to watch meteor showers bundled with blankets lying on the trampoline

be taken outside to watch the sky if we woke in middle of night

snuggle next to mummy and daddy at night for years

make experiments in the kitchen from whatever was available

spend hours playing together in the bath

be spun in a trolley at the supermarket

make multicoloured ice balloons

get more flour on the floor than in the bowl

draw chalk pictures on the street

get on a train just for the ride

climb trees

picnic on the trampoline and the roundabout and just about every park

lie on the car roof and watch the planes overhead

take car trips to the beach

go camping in the woods

go camping in the back garden

go to festivals

(Ongoing more added as remembered!!)

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I made this list because I often ask the girls if they remember doing something from a few years ago (or even yesterday) and they always answer no and I think to myself WTH am I doing making all this effort when they don't even remember! I like to think their subconscious is storing it in their 'we had a great childhood' memory bank to reduce potential future fuckedupedness!!

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I asked hubby for his contribution :-

Do you remember when we used to sleep through the night, have sex, eat out, go to work together in the morning, lol!!!