Food it's not fun yet

I'm all in a food kerfuffle. Have any of you heard about the spit test for thrush? I have no vaginal symptoms but itchy feet and majorly itchy scalp. The woman who did my colonic last Saturday told me about the spit test. Morning spit in water if it starts to streak down you have thrush....

...does everyone have yeast and some have an overgrowth and a problem?

I have basically for the last month stopped carbs (bread, rice, pasta etc) and of course refined sugar since May. 

The thrush diet is no mushrooms quorn dairy sugar so I would have nothing left to eat!! 

I basically am only eating protein dairy and fat just now and creamy mushrooms!!

I wish I wasn't so easily influenced by all the sensible sounding ways of eating.  

I've lost a stone which is great and my blood sugars are steadily lowering and remaining in the diabetic safe zone most of the time  (except for times of mega stress). I've reduced my medication back to two tablets a day. Sometimes only one if I forget!

It's been hard but I've kept at it. I'm still feeling tired but definitely not as much. Still getting mood swings but not nearly as bad. 

I feel obsessed with food again, a place I hate being in. Some days I get so overwhelmed with the thought of what to eat, how many carbs are in things, how many have I had, what's the weight of this, what's the percentage of that and the whole cooking thing that I end up not eating or eating late or just having Greek yoghurt and raspberries. As you all know numbers are not my strong point. 

My sister has gone all gung-ho with the low carb practically no carb diet after finding a knowledgeable woman called Mary Kemp who says diabetes can be reversed with a proper diet and she's finding it so easy and lost loads of weight and keeps her blood sugars in check really well. She can't understand why I'm not finding it as easy as her. She's not very tolerant of weakness. She was only pre diabetic and not on meds so is closer to maintaining than I am. 

Basically I'm not feeling great about the whole food and health thing again. And now this thrush protocol. 

I'm too scared to talk to my doc because NHS guidelines recommend at least 3 times the amount of carbs and say bread rice pasta etc is all ok as long as brown or wholewheat or whatever. And the diabetic nurse already said u was making things complicated and the group diabetes session basically recommends eating things that are 5g or less. 

No carb totally makes sense and I'm doing it its just that I think I'm blocked mentally somehow or worried I'm making things worse or something. Something is not allowing me to just get on. 

Sorry for ramble. 

Meltdowns - had quite a lot of 'I hate you' from 8yr old

Losing the plot - beyond exasperated 

Breastfeeding - yes. Still. 

Articles on diabetes

http://freefromtype2.com/carlos-story/?utm_source=ActiveCampaign&utm_medium=email&utm_content=Some+say+yes%2C+some+say+no+++What%27s+your+opinion%3F&utm_campaign=Day+7+Carlos+reverse+T2

http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/22509138

https://www.nice.org.uk/news/article/stricter-blood-glucose-targets-for-people-with-diabetes

http://www.phlaunt.com/diabetes/14045911.php

http://www.phlaunt.com/diabetes/44487153.php

http://diabetesupdate.blogspot.co.uk/2009/05/new-findings-about-what-metformin.html

http://diabetesupdate.blogspot.co.uk/2010/06/timing-your-metformin-dose.html

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IL_NVLM-kDs

http://freefromtype2.com/ar-how-to-find-hidden-sugars/?utm_source=ActiveCampaign&utm_medium=email&utm_content=Which+%27right%27+food+accelerates+Type+2&utm_campaign=Day+03+Hidden+sugar+and+bread+test

https://lowcarbrn.wordpress.com/2015/10/13/when-can-i-stop-taking-medicine-for-my-type-2-diabetes/

http://www.bmj.com/content/347/bmj.f6340

http://openheart.bmj.com/content/2/1/e000196.full

http://openheart.bmj.com/content/2/1/e000273.full

http://www.precisionnutrition.com/lean-liver-with-low-carb

For whom the bell tolls

Unsurprisingly but very annoyingly my diabetes has resurfaced. Back to cooking real food instead of easy oven ready things and not eating chocolate every night. 

Fuckitybuggerybollox.

 I knew it was only a matter of time. There was no way I could sustain my health with the foods I was eating and definitely not with the amount of chocolate I was on. 

I guess I will be going back to almost Paleo again but this time I am aiming to cook only one meal instead of three. It's going to be a take it or leave it home from now on. I'm also going to have to increase my cooking repetoir to more than just chicken stir fry or mince and sweet potato. :(

#bloodyshittygenetics

#chocoholic

Is it worth the MASSIVE effort?

Do I want to be free of high blood sugars and the threat of type 2 diabetes? 

Although I'm only prediabetic, it's inevitable that I will develop type 2,  the GP said. I have many of the risk factors. Genetics, overweight, stress....

THE DIET RULES

This study on the 800 calorie diet, has only be done on 11 people, of them, 7 reversed their diabetes and there hasn't been a follow up yet. There is anecdotal evidence all over google of others who have tried it. Some didn't even do it to the letter. 

Sustainability afterwards is the key but maybe this is the injection turbo booster quick fix crash diet magic pill popping elixir I need. 

I anticipate that like lack of sleep, lack of food will create a crazed deprived mama and the short term result will NOT be fun. Or pretty. 

Long term though....it could be the jackpot. 

I crash dieted a lot when I was younger. I went through phases like most teenagers of poor body image and always *knew* my life would be better if I had a flat stomach. I became vegetarian firstly because I imagined it would mean eating less.  I tried that slimfast diet that was ALL over TV in the 80's.  I was so consumed with dieting I wished I was anorexic. I wished I had the will power and strength not to eat. How messed up is that!  Not eating was difficult. I like my food!  I was also bulimic for a few years. That was a joyful time. Not. Ultimately though it was all about trying to feel in control of my life. I see that now. 

This is also about taking control of a situation. I just don't know if I have the wherewithal or enough support. Could my family handle me even more crazy for two months! Can they afford not too? Diabetes can be problematic to say the least. I'm running out of time. 

Do you think this diet is possible for 8wks? 

Do you think I have the will power, the motivation, the strength?

Would you if your life depended on it?

Meltdowns - they will be mostly from me!

Losing the plot - I most probably will!! 

Breastfeeding - will it be affected?

Click the blue links for more information:

Info on the study:
from the University

Articles about the study: 

from the university
from The Express
From Diabetes.co.uk

Articles from those who have tried it:
from The Guardian

Buggerz

I've been swimming in denial for about a year now. I know I shouldn't be doing it. I know it's genetic and age related. I know my brother and my father both got it. I know ALL this, yet I just couldn't stop.

Every night, once the kids are finally asleep and I am finally settled on the sofa after my dinner, we eat chocolate.  Not talking a wee bar here, I'm talking the big big ones. The yummy massive ones. And sometimes a bag of something else chocolatey. It is my treat for making it through the day. E. V. E. R. Y. night. 

Except sometimes, I have it during the day too. Especially if I am feeling crappy. It boosts me with it's lovely chocolatey seratonin kick. I find I can't feel complete with my meal if I don't seal it with chocolate. I'm totally addicted. 

I have a very addictive personality. If it's in the house I can't ignore it. If I want some and don't get it, I get all withdrawy and edgy. It's quite scary. 

I knew I needed to cut down but I just kept ignoring it. Making excuses. I deserve it. I've earned it. I NEED IT DAMMIT!!

Well my ticking time bomb has finally been activated. My blood sugar levels are elevated and I have an appointment with the Dr tomorrow who will no doubt tell me to sort out my diet and stop eating my beloved chocolate. I'm still hoping it's all a big error (I know it's not). 

The diet recently has mainly consisted of pasta which hasn't helped either. When money is tight, pasta is cheap and easy. Frankly I am sick of pasta, so I won't be sad to cut that down. I just really need to get my arse back into cooking gear and start making proper healthy meals again. I'm going to need to dig out my gestational diabetes pregnancy food diet and start following that again. 

Honestly I am not looking forward to any of it. I love my chocolate. Giving it up is hard. If I go through a day without it, that's amazing for me. I had to stop all sugar during my pregnancy and all I did was dream about chocolate.  I even made a blog post about it.  I'm trying new recipes of pseudo chocolate with cocoa and bananas and avocados but it's just not tobelerone :(

The other thing I'm going to need to do now is more exercise. I'm dreading this too especially with my back pain. I guess walking toddler pace just doesn't cut it!

I suppose it explains my extreme tiredness and constant hunger.  I'm really quite depressed about it all which makes me even less inclined to want to take on this huge task of change but I'm going to have to. 

Basically I am a big fat mess of unhealthy and it's time to face reality, deal with myself and sort my shit out. 

Meltdowns - eldest is going through something, so on the increase 

Losing the plot - too tired

Breastfeeding - reduces risk of diabetes but doesn't completely stop it if you still eat rubbish!