Day 12 - Pain Day

I am in so much pain when I wake up today, I decide not to get up.  Hubby changes Millie before he goes to work and puts her back on my boob and there we stay.  I don't really mind the girls finishing the ice cream.  I love listening to them play house in the next room and not disturbing me.  I hate being in so much pain.

The soft play really did a number on my coccyx and yesterday I did a mega hoover and house tidy.  That's an on hands and knees with attachment type hoovering.  So my back and coccyx are agony.  My back has completely seized up and I cannot move and every movement is awful on my bum bone.  I feel old and decrepit. And I have headache.

It also kills my mood.  I warn the girls to ignore my shouting today.  I am snappy.  I am grumpy.  My patience is shot. Pain is a bugger in so many ways.

They have swimming today at 4.30pm and every 5minutes since 12pm,  Maia asks me 'Is it time to go? Is it time to go?' She loves to repeat. It drives me nutso!  Got to love her enthusiasm though.  So thankful they have no concept of time yet as its been really useful today.  'Before we go swimming we have to.....'  So far we have brought plates into the kitchen, put cream on sores, carried nappies upstairs and best of all you have to blow your nose and be snot free before you go swimming!!

Fight the pain mama

I also had a major crack down on their tv watching today.  I felt it was making them really angry and grumpy and sedentary. They don't kick up a fuss and go off to play...I want to say 'go off to play happily', but it doesn't quite happen that way.  Throughout the day they come to me complaining the other has hit them.  I listen to their story, empathise with their pain and remind them we don't hit in our family.  I am sure there is more I could be doing but today my resources are too low to manage more.  So they have bouts of playing brilliantly and bouts not so.

Meanwhile, Millie is feeding a ton and still feeling the effects of my pizza.  Her bum is red raw and she is farting like a trooper.  AND Ellie has given her another cold so she is full of snot and unbelievably unhappy about lying flat again.  She is not a happy camper either.

Swimming is too short, its only half an hour and the girls needed to pee one after the other this week, so the minute I sat down, which is incredibly painful,  I am up again and then up and down again.  Whilst drying the girls, the mum next to me starts complaining about her hubby buying her kids crisps before dinner....I rush the girls and their chocolate minstrels out the door!

Once home, Millie has a complete gurgling snot filled screaming painful squitty pooping meltdown.  I shove two carrots and some lentils in a pot call it soup and count the minutes until hubby comes home.

Meltdowns - Millie sized one

Losing the Plot - most of the morning due to pain

Breastfeeding - all morning

Day 9 - The Day My Bum Broke

I always try to do as little housework as possible on the weekend to help recharge for the coming week. The only problem with that, is the place becomes kind of unmanageable and Barry has to do more than usual. The best plan is to not be at home. This happened today.

Maia, for her birthday, wanted to go to soft play and swimming. We did soft play today. 

Grandpa, Barbara, Daddy and the girls

I am still amazed when the girls go off and play on their own because till Ellie was about 3 and Maia was similar age, they would always need and want me to go in with them. I didn't really mind but sometimes it would have been good to just sit like the other mums. When young, it was a great way to stay connected with them, tire them out and helped me feel better about taking them to somewhere kind of  'mainstream'. 

So today, I promised I would go on with them as Barry could hold Millie. 

Two things I learnt today from going to soft play

1) I may be too old to go into the soft play now - I severely injured my coccyx going down the steep scary slide with Ellie. 

2) I scream louder than any kid in there going down the steep scary slide with Ellie. 

After soft play, we went to a restaurant for lunch with a whole bunch of family members. 

I now have a brilliant tip for going to a restaurant with my girls. Knacker them out first at soft play!! 

Restaurants are not something we can usually do with the girls. They find it hard to wait for food and tend to not realise yet that restaurants are different to eating at home. We end up getting so stressed at trying to keep them calm and it's not fair on them to expect they can do it. But woah!!! Soft play beforehand...brilliant!!!!

I also managed a first today with the help of older cousin Jack. Whilst the girls were happily off playing, I managed to sit and watch a film without too much disturbance!!! In fact it was a lovely evening with hubby's sisters and even though the girls didn't get to sleep till about midnight, it all seemed so ok!

Except that once again we didn't manage dinner till late so I did something daft and ordered pizza. I kind of hope she might not react to the wheat, but I just know Millie and I will be regretting my decision tomorrow. 

Meltdowns - none

Losing the Plot - none

Breastfeeding - wheat laden :-( sorry Millie